There are many spiritual teachings out there and it could be said that each one of them has value and is appropriate depending on the individual, the culture and the circumstance. However, because these spiritual teachings arose after the founder had a total or partial ‘deconstruction’ experience, they are not going to be of much value until we have our own deconstruction experience. Each tradition creates its own expression of the world after the founder’s inner deconstruction of the world and is therefore just a mental thread which is developed from scratch, rather than one that builds upon the old. Like great art, a religion or spiritual teaching is appealing because it is a truly fresh way to point to and express truth, to some degree or another.
Unless we have our own deconstruction experience(s), practicing a religion is like listening to the music of someone else or admiring someone else’s painting. It reminds us a bit of who we are or who we could be, the Christ logos within us. Because it inspires or resonates with us it may temporarily ‘lift us up,’ but eventually, everyone should paint their own picture, hum their own tune and thoroughly deconstruct their own reality.
Enlightenment is a deconstruction experience, when you’re whole world is completely deconstructed and shown to you in a different light, from a different perspective. It is a new, bottom-up seeing of the underside of everything and what you previously thought was one way is actually another way too. Rather than just another view, it is the realization that all views are one view and the other view is the bottom-up view, like looking at a flower through the root and stem instead of from the top. It is like a view of the source, the underside, the origin of everything and afterwards everything is just another mental thread, another painting, another song.
This deconstruction is the end of suffering because suffering is believing in what is constructed, believing what is perceived has reality beyond our perception of it. One suffers because he believes in a self which suffers from circumstances which exist outside of his perception. Neither this self nor these circumstances beyond perception are ultimately real. Deconstruction doesn’t remove pain, but it removes suffering because we are no longer trapped in views (which are one side of reality) but we now have broken free to no-view (or the source of views, or original nature, etc.). We are able to live a whole new part of reality that was previously inaccessible to us.
To have a real deconstruction experience can be very traumatic if we are not ready for it. It can feel like being schizophrenic or lost at sea, and unless we have a grounded practice, solid relationships and a safe container to experience our first true deconstruction we can seem to go a little bit crazy. Also, realize that this enlightenment experience does not change the personality, but rather it allows us to see the source of personality and then, later, we may choose to create personality consciously as we would a painting or a song. It is not ‘our’ personality, it is just ‘a’ personality. Choose the personality that gets the job done and make sure it’s a job worth doing.
We don’t get the deconstruction experience by seeking agreement or being ‘mindful,’ we get the deconstruction experience by outgrowing all views. Meditation can make our inner world seem claustrophobic and it is this claustrophobia which facilitates dhyana (focus on who we are or our origin), the proximate cause of insight. There are all different levels of deconstruction experience and we will have many of them in various degrees throughout practice and throughout our life. Just like in life, some like to go fast and some like to go slow. There’s no problem with either approach and there’s no reason to go at someone else’s pace. Also, there’s no need to judge the depth, quality or impact of a deconstruction experience – each has it’s own value in the moment. All of us will undergo a deconstruction experience at death. We can realize the illusion of death and rebirth by learning to die over and again, much like the practice of the Tibetan sand mandala. We learn to create again and again from zero, unhindered by the past. We learn that because life is illusory, so is birth and so is death. We permanently disrupt the thread of time that previously trapped us and learn about creation, dissolution and transcendence – birth, death and abiding.
On a large scale, we see these patterns of constriction and release in such systems as economics and geopolitical conflicts. Because we have been trained to see only manifestation but not necessarily to recognize constant deconstruction, we unknowingly hitch our horse to the wheel of samsara as the steamroller of time turns. Laws on top of laws, conflicts on top of conflicts, debt on top of debt, bandaids on top of bandaids until the whole thing comes crashing down. The art of deconstruction is sorely needed in these times and, luckily, its power is quick and total.